Growing up, my dream was always to be a rockstar. Little did I know, I would have to redefine what that meant.
In my younger years (10-13), I spent most nights immersed in an online game.
It was there that I crafted an identity as a young knight—a character full of prestige, fearless and trustworthy. In contrast to the tough environment I faced offline, I felt empowered.
I was always different, always fighting for acceptance—everywhere except online.
As I got older, my love for computers grew, and I discovered a passion for content creation.
I recorded myself playing the drums and riding BMX, pouring my heart into making videos.
One day, while out riding BMX, I was called from behind to "stop and help,"
I was instead threatened and beaten for my belongings.
The assault (amongst other things) left me full of anger, my cherished bike gone—something I had saved every fucking penny I made that year for.
It was a turning point.
I looked myself in the mirror, a thirteen-year-old kid, and vowed never to let anything like that happen again.
I was only 13...
And so it was.
I became guarded, shutting out the world around me.
The trauma of life had caught up to me.
I decided I was going to be dark and cold.
That's all life ever proved to me to be consistent..
And it lingered, haunting me, until one day, the world became all too real.
Offered a seemingly harmless escape in the form of Ritalin, I found myself falling into a decade-long spiral of drug abuse and toxic relationships.
Amidst my failures and the depths of despair, I discovered invaluable lessons that shaped the person I am today.
Now, as I stand at the crossroads of my past and my future, I am determined to harness the years of trauma and addiction as fuel for a new journey of self-discovery.
Embracing the identity of "Sadi,"
I am committed to building the world I want to live in—a world without limitation. Filled with charisma, and creativity.
It's not for me, but for my son, whose future I hold dear.
And for you, Starchild. For I believe in you.
Together, we will forge a path of resilience and transformation, leaving behind a legacy of strength and possibility.
Welcome home,
Sadi